Soul Palace

I think probably almost 3 years ago, I am in this position. And for some God forsaken reasons, I am in the same spot again. I really wonder why.

Same mess, same situation, same nonsense…just different scenario and in a different place and with a different group of people.

Tiring you know…I am at a contemplating stage again. Contemplate what I should do next, when I should do it…whether I should do it.

I guess I am really not good in “dancing cha cha”, neither is “maybe” in my dictionary. Or good at “dangling myself”.

There’s just this same “statement” kept chanting in my head and its causing my patience to reach its threshold. I almost went to a website and do the needy but somehow I stopped myself.

I told myself cool it…wait till after the leave then see whether its impulsive or its really “time up” for myself. Currently, the feeling is the latter. I knew that I cannot take it anymore.

I guess I am just buying time…I know I will do it. Just a sooner or later case.

I’m really getting sick and tired of this