As days goes by, I see history unfold itself. Though this time round, I didn’t did what I used to do…I mean I didn’t put in whole of my heart. I didn’t put in any effort to begin with.
I am not sure if I should say that history had repeated cos I am not sad cos of the present. I’m sad cos what had happened in the past that had hurt me too much and seeing it ‘somehow’ repeating in real life as if I’m watching a recorded film, like a sad movie. I can’t help but felt like crying
But tears had never come easy to me…come to think of it, its been 10 yrs that my tears had been robbed away from me.
Every time when sadness overwhelm me, I can say I hate it. Cos tears won’t drop but I just have this indescribable heartache…it wrecking till some stage that I literally can’t breathe.
Sometime, I wish I can turn back time and erase all those things that had robbed away my naive-ness. Maybe if those things that had not happened, I could have been a happier me. Not this tough and yet vulnerable
