Its a beginning of a rather scary journey…personal and at work. Its like somebody is trying to tie down the wall that I had built up for the longest time.
I know I need to embrace the change but I think there’s what made it more scary cos the last time that I allowed it, it didn’t turn out well. The feeling is like…you know some of the principles, you cannot erase and you still need to keep. But in the other hand, you need to think if the change that is introduce to you and fit it into your current principles or exchange it out.
In fact, my brain is in constant processing cos one part of the brain have to remind myself not to resist the change, another part need to absorb what is said and another part is trying to map it to logical sense so as to support the very first part.
I seriously need a break and “run away from human being” cos with my life still not sorted out from the 360 degree tumbling mode…introducing this “process” into my life right now, doesn’t seems to be a good timing…I know its necessary but I just need a breather first and hope when I come back…it will work like it always do. To put the tumbling mode behind me and gracefully embrace the change.
