My heart is something that I have not know how to use it since 7 yrs ago. My soul is something that was lost since then. I knew it, all too well…the cause of it.
For several years, I had been trying to attempt to use my heart. But time and time, I withdrew and chose to use my brain instead cos it won’t be that painful. Without my heart, I can’t find my soul that made up my spirit.
I knew why I can’t write like before. Without the 2 vital piece that is critical, how am I gonna go back to paper and pen again?
Coming to this new workplace is no longer just about work, it seems like God put me here for a reason. Throughout this 1 year, think there is countless instances of ‘I used to be able to do that’ moment.
For the past years, I haven’t allow anyone to instruct or teach me. And nobody had been able to successfully challenge me. That’s what at least that I thought so.
But this time, I had this person whom is so persistent and my resistence literally shot out by multiple folds.
But lately, I realized that it seems like someone up there seems to be pushing me to go back to the past to find the key to the fortress of mine. The journey back is dangerous cos I do not know if I will be able to come back safely. But I had decided to let God lead the way. If it is His will to make this happen, He will make my journey safe…
