For years since…I cannot even remember anymore since when. It had always been…I taking care of other ppl. Thus far, there’s not a single person that had made me felt that he is capable of taking care of me.
Sometimes, I wonder if I’m too independent or what. Or simply, I reject the what I so called “weakness”.
But I do feel at many a times that I do want to have someone to lean on. Someone who is much stronger than me, in every sense. Do such person exist?
God taught me to be contented with what I have. And I’ve humbly accepted many facts in life. But it can be so tiring, the feeling is always about…I am always the strong one among all. Someone that many can lean on. Then if when I am weak, who I can turn to? The answer is always “I don’t know”
I’ve many friends with God’s blessing. If so, why do kept feeling this way? I’m consider quite successful in many sense. Then what do I lack?
God, can you tell me why do I feel this way again and again? What is eating me up? Can You please tell me, what is going on?
